Yesterday was Christmas. I am thankful it was over. Although because of the snow and ice storms on the east coast of the US we have had at least 6 air planes not come in and they are still not in. That means that I have lost out on about 25 hours of work this past week. But I think that I will be making some of it up this next week.

My band had a show last night. It was at a more popular club. This club is open later than most clubs. We were to go on at 11pm. By the time we started there was maybe 20 people there. We played our set then sat around with some of my friends that came to see us play. Then I left with some of them and went to the beach and hung out over there for about an hour or so.

They took me back to my car at about 1:45am and instead of going home I went back into the club. I don't know what happened because the place was packed. The sound guy at the club really likes our music and so does his best friend. He was telling me that it makes him so mad because all these people go to other clubs and have fun then when those clubs close they come over to this club and expect to get in for free. He thinks that they should charge triple after 1am.

I start talking to his best friend. She is a really cool chick. She has these tattoos on her chest and they are of hearts. But one is an angel in a heart shape and the other is a demon in a heart shape. She bought me a soda because I don't like the taste of beer and just hung out and talked and stuff. Then the sound guy bought me a refill. We just joked around and laughed and had fun. I am excited to do more shows there. They are cool people.

I guess I will go now. I don't know why I wrote about this in this post or what the point of it was but... Whatever!  &nbs p;

Well if you read the second post down you would know that I have a problem. There is a boy (and when I say boy I mean boy he is 19 and I am nearly 24) who likes me (from now on he will be called- the boy). He never actually said those words to me but he makes it very clear in his actions. I have no feelings for him in any way shape or form.

So I thought I needed to tell the boy that I was not interested. Especially since he was planning on "making me happy" and "making my Christmas special". I thought I should make it clear to him, that I should set the boy straight.

I didn't know how to start. I didn't know if I should come right out and tell him I didn't like him or if I should tell him that I liked someone else. I didn't know. Well it came time to tell him because I thought that I should do it as soon as possible, especially since Christmas is right around the corner. And I mean right around the corner.

Well the day was tuesday December 21st. I had worked 7 hours through the night, got home slept for about 5 then went back to work and delieved pa ckages for about 6 hours. I went home got some movies and was going to relax on the couch. I had just ate and the boy comes over to my house. (He lives downstairs from me) He asks if I am hungry and I say no. He sees me put in a movie and says "Oh can I make dinner up here and watch this with you?" I told him I didn't care.  I knew this had to be the day I was going to tell him.

Well the guitarist in my band calls and tells me that he has a christmas prestent for me and he is going to drop it off for me. Now Miles (that is his name, the guitarist) is a really tall, toned, handsom black guy. He shows up and one of the girls let him into the building and yells up to me, "Christine, there is some guy here for you!" So he comes up and he gives me the present and a hug and says he has to leave. He sees the boy and says hi and whatever. I tell Miles that I will walk him down.

We get downstairs to his car and there are two guys in the car, Noah and Mark, a guy with really little legs. I start freaking out to Miles asking what I should say and how I should start the conversation. Noah asks what is the matter and Miles tells him that I have an unwanted visitor. I tell him its a boy and Noah says, "Mark stop the car we have to help our friend! Don't worry N Boss, Smiles and Little Legs are here to help." He was all ready to kick the boy out of my house and yell at him. I had to restrain him. But I couldn't stop laughing.

So I finally get him settled down and he says that I should leave for a minute and tell the boy to answer my phone and Noah would call and pretent to be my boyfriend and freak out on the boy. I told him no I had to be truthfull with the boy and had to say something.

So I go upstairs and start to talk to him- or maybe I should say I started to studder. (Don't worry I don't normally have that problem) Finally I said, "I was wondering what do you think is going on here between us?" then he said, "Who is us?" We were the only ones there who else could be us? Then he said, "What do you mean?" I said, "Like what do you think is going to happen here in the future?" He said, "You mean like husband and wife?" lol "I mean boyfriend and girlfriend" This whole time he has had the most serious face I have ever seen him have before and this boy is a serious one. Then he started to say no he didn't think it was like that Blah blah blah.

So I said, "Good, because I have been having this problem with guys where they just beat around the bush with me and I never know what is going on. So I just wanted to make sure that I was not leading you on in any way shape or form." Then he said, "Oh no, if I thought it was going in that direction then I would have told you straight up." Good.

Then the boy asked me if I was ok. I told him yeah (I definatly was way better now) He didn't believe me, whatever. Then he started to laugh at me about being nervous and said that he was going to tell everyone. Again whatever. I just wanted to be sure that he knew how I felt. And now he does. I could have been wrong.

He eats his dinner and watches 15 minutes of the movie and says that he is going to leave now. Instead of going down to his house he goes all the way down to his car and drives away. Two nights have passed since and he still has nopt returned. I think he went home to his momma.    

I am definatly not in the Christmas spirit. I remember when I was a kid all the way untill I was 21, I loved christmas. I always had the first presents under the tree, I was so thoughtful on what to get people. Not since I started to work at UPS I have not once been very good at my presents or very thoughtfull. I just have been too busy, working too much, and too tired, from working too much, that I am not in the spirit of Christmas. It does not help much these past two years living on a tropical island and it not being cold. It is not as bad this year as it was last because it feels like christmas was last year.

I am just so drained. Emotionally and physically. I just want to sleep. I am working over 15 hours a day and I am having boy problems again against my will. I am not even interested in having a boyfriend right now but it never fails. Maybe boys will be giving me trouble my whole life. I don't know why they like me. I am not that cute. Now don't get me wrong I am no ugly duckling but I am definately not a swan either.

These boys are making me so stressed out. I am breaking out. I have a huge zit on my cheek! What the heck!? I grew out of that three or four years ago. It is true, you break out when you are stressed out.

Christmas is in 3 days! I have not bought one christmas prestent yet. I have to get for the boy downstairs, the guys in my band and for some friends that I am going to be spending with on Christmas.

What do you think? What should I get the guys in my band? Not gift cards or certificates. There are three of them. I don't know what to get. 

Ok this is my problem. There is this guy that likes me. I don't like him at all not even an inch. There is no hope for us to ever be together.

When this normally happens I just don't act interested. Then the guy normally gets the hint. Well I have been doingthis with with guy for a while now and he is not getting the hint. He is even saying weird stuff. I have been working a butt load lately so I have been really out of it lately. Well the guy keeps on saying stuff and I think I really need to set the guy straight.

For example last night, I came home from youth group at 11:30pm and I had a half an hour till I had to go to work. So I made myself a smoothie. (This guy lives downstairs) He came over and I asked him if he wanted one too and he said yeah. So I am making the smoothie and he is talking away and he tells me that he is making dinner on monday. (I make dinner all the time and I just make a whole bunch of it, I came from a big family, and if anybody comes over then they can eat too, if not then I just save it for left overs.) So I figured that is what he is going to do and he tells me I can come over to eat. So I am like ok whatever. Then, I am still makeing the smoothie, and he says, "What should I make? Is mexican a good date food?" Now this guy is asian and I am  part mexican. If someone starts talking about making mexican I get concerned with the quality of the mexican food. So since he said "mexican" before the word "date" I was stuck on the word "mexican" So I turn around and say, "Do you make good mexican food? Because my family makes the best I have ever had." While I am saying this what he said is playing through my mind. The word "date" is echoing through my mind *date date date date...*

I didn't say anything about it, I didn't know what to say. I should have though. Then I finished the smoothie and gave him his and as I was getting mine he was grabbing a spoon from the dish drainer. He grabbed the one that I wanted. The handle is heavier on this spoon. I said, "oh, I wanted that one." So he gave it to me and said, "What ever you want. Whatever makes you happy. I want to make you happy." WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON HERE.?! I DON'T UNDERSTAND! LEAVE ME ALONE! Then he spent the whole time we were eating our smoothies asking me what I wanted for christmas. I told him I didn't want anything. But he wants to make christmas special for me.

So this is my question - should I tell him I don't like him before or after christmas?

• If I tell him before Christmas then it might ruin his christmas and he will forever hate christmas.


• If I tell him after christmas then he might think that I was just waiting for him to give me the present before I tell him I don't like him.


• But wouldn't it be better to tell the guy as soon as possible?

Oh God, I don't know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!    

What a day. It was a good day. Alot of things got accomplished. First it started where I was going to fix my car. I needed to get a new battery. The one that I had was dead and there was no way to bring it back to life.

I went to Costco because I heard that they had the cheapest ones. Being a college student I need the cheapest ones of everything. I looked through the book and found the make and modle of my car and guess what they didn't have the one that I needed. Great! Of course that is what would happen.

So I went home and looked at my battery. It said Kmart on it. So I took out my old battery and went to kmart. I found the matching one and brought it up to the customer service counter and the lady looked at it and said, "Oh do you need a new one?" I told her I did and took the new one out ofthe cart. She asked me if I had my reciept and I told her no. So she said, "We will do a straight exchange then." she scanned the old battery and then scanned the new battery and wrote on the old one, '"damaged". She gave me the reciept and bid me goodbye. It was the best. I was thinking that I was going to have to buy one for about $55 US and I didn't have to pay a red cent.

I went home and put the new battery in and the car started right up. WHooo hoooo!

Then I got my roommate and we went to go and buy a Christmas Tree! I wanted one that was about two feet tall. I went to the place that I went last year and they were closing up. They were all done selling Christmas trees. They told me that they only had two little ones left. One of them looked like a bush. So I got the other one. I love it. It is so cute. I named it Small One. My roommate hates him. She thinks he lookes lopsided and is ugly. 

Later that night we decorated it. It looks so good. We decorated it with white lights and red and white curling ribbon and little red balls. It looks so good. The bad thing is that by tomorrow afternoon I will have no one to share the tree with. All my roommates will be going home to there families while I stay here and work. I know it sounds horible but it is not too bad. Now I can raise money to pay for tuition next semester and play alot of concerts with my band. 

Who's band made it to the finals of the battle of the bands? That's right! My band! Harrison!

We played the battle of the bands last thursday. We rocked, I have to say. Although, we did not win. The way it works is there are three nights of concerts. We played the second night. Each night there is a winner from who played that night. Well we did not win the night we played, so we figured that we did not make it to the finals.

Today I checked my email and I got an email from my drummer saying that the other night he got a call from his friend who was at the club that we played at and they were announcing who was going to the finals. Then all of a sudden they said our name and that we made it as a wild card!

Whoo hooo!!!!!!!! Yyyaayayayyyayyayya!!!!!! yyyyeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited. It is cool that we made it to the finals. I would be so much more excited if we won though because the winners open for the Yellow Card and New Found Glory concert.