I just got back from watching the movie The Perfect Man. I know I know! Its a Hilary Duff movie but Chris Noth was in it. Big from Sex and the City. Anyways that movie hit way to close to home. I won't go into some of it but Holly the main girl found this guy for her mom. Everything about him fit perfect with her mom. It was amazing. Anybody could see it.

Well that is like my life. I have a friend who is everything that  ;I have ever wanted in a boyfriend/husband. Everything even down to being a virgin. He wants to live the same kind of life I want to live and I have never found that in anyone else before. But for some reason he can't see that I would be perfect for him. That we are perfect for each other.

I went home for three weeks and he happened to be in the area for those same weeks visiting his brother. So I invited him to go to camp with me and he came. He met my friends and eventually he met my parents. It though that was a good sign that he might like me back. But last night we were at a show and I over heard him say, "Oh no, well I met this girl at camp and we have emailed a couple times. She is Filipino. But other than that I am just living the single life." That hit me hard because that Filipino girl that he is talking about is my best friend. It really sucks. I can't even talk to my best friend about it because it is about her.

The other week at church the pastor was talking about having a friend. A friend that is always there for you who goes through everything with you, who can share all the important things of your life. I have never really had that. I have had good friends and my best friend now is a really good friend but I still have never had that. I pray and ask God for a friend.  

A friend of mine told me that he likes me. I told him that I was sorry but I was not interested. That was a couple months ago.

Last night he took me out and we went down to the beach. This all made me really uncomfortable. He told me that he had written a song he wanted me to hear. We walked to the shore line and sat down. He started to play the song and it was about me! Then after that he put his guitar down and knelt down on one knee and pulled out a white box with a ring and told me that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and then asked if I would marry him. I had to say no. I don't like him like that at all.

When we went back to the car I got inside and he threw the ring into the bushes. So what do you think? Should I go and try to find the ring?